Alone

Nobody knows. It would take attention. Intuition. A moment of not focusing on oneself. There’s beauty in this world, but there’s also an area of darkness that remains inconspicuous to most. No one notices it within others very often. It’s all internal. It’s all in our heads. Well that’s the most dangerous thing for one’s sanity. For their mental health. For their happiness. To continue going on through life, caring about others, wanting to connect to them, needing to connect to them, but not feeling the same care reciprocated. It’s like you’re that cashier that continuously asks distracted customers how they are, and wishing their ungrateful ass a good day when you finish giving them what they bought. You’re left feeling alone, while standing surrounded in a crowded room. You’re never alone in the literal sense, but you’re always alone in reality. Depth doesn’t seem to exist anymore. Intimacy is a rarity. No one knows how to connect anymore… Actually, that’s not true. No one cares. There is a lack of interest. “Focus on someone but myself? Make someone feel valued? Have genuine interest in someone? Pshh that’s too much work, I’ll just let people treat me like some amazing discovery while I remain indifferent towards them.” 

I don’t want to go to bed mad at you…

     I just finished listening to a song I recently discovered by NE-YO, titled “mad”. Tonight though, I watched the music video that went along with the song for the first time. It was sad… :(. The video had an important message in it, that you may have not caught by just listening to the song it’s self. It seems to me that the message he is trying to show is that you don’t know when will be your last day. A loved one of yours could storm out the house in middle of an argument between the two of you, and get hit by a car. If you watch the video you will realize that this rash situation is not something I just thought of, but rather the situation in the music video. 

     Something I hadn’t noticed in the beginning of the video, was that he died. It would have made a lot more sense, and would have been even sadder to watch the video, if that detail hadn’t gone right over my head. It was such a small detail, but it made a difference as I watched it over again. Surprisingly I got goose bumps and felt very saddened by the video once I understood what was going on. 

     This music video reminded just how important it is to say goodnight to your love with words of kindness. Rather than waking up still with the rage you had with one another. We should cherish our loved ones dearly, because we never know when we may loose them. I recommend watching the music video, it may not be your particular style of music, but the video and song, mix in just the right ways to give you the chills (goose bumps :P). The song is named “mad” by NE-YO, if you forgot ;P. 

      I wish you all a good night, and may you tell your loved one “je t’aime! <3” with a smile on your face, as you say your goodbyes tonight :D!